I was 19, and I had an abortion. Yes that’s right. I did. I will take full responsibility for my choices then. I didn’t know I had choices. I didn’t realize I could have given that child a life of love and a family. I only knew one way out. And that was to have an abortion. If I could go back 30 years from that day oh my life would be so different. But I can not. I can only do better, and teach others there are choices and there is life. Today I am 49. I have 2 biological daughters, 26 and 22. They are beautiful and healthy. But something was missing. I found God. This may sound strange but I was raised in the best home, had the best parents and everything I could ask for. But didn’t have a knowledge of God. We didn’t go to church. We didn’t pray before meals. I just didn’t know. Sounds crazy now, because He was with me the whole time, watching over me and standing with me. And I didn’t even know Him. After my daughters were born life went on. But something was missing. I felt like a child was out there and i needed him and he needed me. I kept my girls crib and dresser from their nursery for 16 years before it would be used again. And God in all his glory wrote the most beautiful love story. I am a nurse and was working at a hospital when a coworker of mine was telling me about her daughter who was pregnant. She said her daughter is going to choose adoption. Right then and there I started to shake, my heart was pounding and I said “that’s my son!” She looked at me and said “yes I think it is!” She didn’t even know my heart, my desires for another child. But God knew. He knew because He wrote this story and was about to bring it to life.

On July 29th 2013 my son was born via c-section from the most beautiful women. When I saw him take his first breath mine was taken away. I cried the ugliest cry of my life. It was unbelievable. God loves me so much he is giving me this second chance at being a mom, third chance really. I had my daughters who were perfect and now I have a son. This seemed unreal. My husband and I cried for 3 days and still have to pinch ourselves sometimes that God gave us this life. After what I did in my past, God forgave me and gave me another chance at being a mommy. How remarkable is that?!? Our son Jackson Carter May has taught me forgiveness, grace, mercy and that God is ALWAYS there. Even when you don’t feel him, or know Him. My passion is to tell other young girls that there are choices. There is a loving God and he does love and want the best for you.